Retro

It has been 33 months since I came here and I have been in the literary committee for the same amount time. I went home in my first euphoria bit stayed here and in fact, gave my hand in organising the events along with my friend Debo and Rajon in second year. We organised our own last year. The committee members of 2012 has remained more or less the same , barring two changes. We are left with the job of publishing the annual college magazine 2015 for which only printing has remained to be done. As our 33 months long journey drives towards the destination, a sense of well being interwoven with nostalgia is running through my veins. The members are now like a family. We share each other's flaws, abilities, disabilities, joy, sorrow and what not. As I get exposed to each scolding, each appreciation, suggestion and criticism, it seems I have become more matured ; responsible, committed and soft. I am lucky to have such people as my members. They have supported to in both good and bad times. I got to know the intricate components of living a life and in that I have got to know what love and friendship mean. Apart from the committe thing, thus journey has given me the opportunity to reown myswlf from the hands of the ever increasing sea of wildernwss. I think I have succeeded in finding at least what my life partner should be like. Who knows she is somewhere near waiting for the perfect day or thousand miles away from me. Whatever it is, I wouldn't tremble to find her.

It is good to have an end to journey
toward; but it is the journey that
matters, in the end.

Ernest Hemingway

Realisation

Life is a great journey only if you know how to travel. In my 23 years of existence, i have come across many people. Some enjoy appreciating others, some enjoy blaming, some don't enjoy anything at all.

I shall say I am someone who wants to liberate myself from the chains of  society. I have a strong desire to work together and a firm belief in the motto “From each according to his ability, to each according to his needs.”

I have few friends with similar ideal. In these few weeks, I got to know one coming of age friend of mine has very similar thought process as mine. Live life to the fullest, hate the ones who hate you but never ever hate someone until that someone hates you. Love is a word that explains the unconditional everything for someone.

In this journey of life, I have learnt how to cheat, how to ignore important things of life. I also learnt to help people, to be responsible and be enthusiastic and to love near and dear ones unconditionally. However on a realisation note, I feel a void , someone whom I can trust, whom I can share everything with.

Like everyone else, i am not free of problems and my problem is I can't settle for a long time. I simply cannot, may be because I try to find trust and loyalty from those in whom there is no such thing. I need a friend, a true friend with whom I can share everything. I want to let go my emotions, my disability, my secrets, my weakness. I hope to find someone who will be by my side in times of thick and thin. Relationship apart, I want to undo my mistakes. I want to be young again, sincere and without trouble. I didn't consider the value of those 3 long years but today I realise the importance of time, sincerity and hard work. I wish I was a better man.

PS: It is not a race to win. No one wins the race against time. Tomorrow becomes today, today signs off to be yesterday . The only thing that wins against time is experience.